My fucked life

I'm losing it again....i feel like i'm climbing out a hole and once again i'm almost out and i'm losing my grip....if i fall again...it's over...i'm done....i need to get my education...i need a job....i need...someone....i haven't even passed grade ten...i'm a fucking failure....i've never even had a girlfriend....my roommates are psychotic drug addict's...i've been fucked up on prescription medication since i was 5 years old....i have nothing...no life....no friends....no hope...i can't do this anymore.......

Cory wrote:

I'm losing it again....i feel like i'm climbing out a hole and once again i'm almost out and i'm losing my grip....if i fall again...it's over...i'm done....i need to get my education...i need a job....i need...someone....i haven't even passed grade ten...i'm a fucking failure....i've never even had a girlfriend....my roommates are psychotic drug addict's...i've been fucked up on prescription medication since i was 5 years old....i have nothing...no life....no friends....no hope...i can't do this anymore.......

Dude....This reminded me of someone named Cody in my last clan who supposedly killed himself...And he wrote something like this so, Dude...Don't try to pull this shit.

Katy wrote:

Cory wrote:

I'm losing it again....i feel like i'm climbing out a hole and once again i'm almost out and i'm losing my grip....if i fall again...it's over...i'm done....i need to get my education...i need a job....i need...someone....i haven't even passed grade ten...i'm a fucking failure....i've never even had a girlfriend....my roommates are psychotic drug addict's...i've been fucked up on prescription medication since i was 5 years old....i have nothing...no life....no friends....no hope...i can't do this anymore.......

Dude....This reminded me of someone named Cody in my last clan who supposedly killed himself...And he wrote something like this so, Dude...Don't try to pull this shit.

I'm sorry i lost my head a bit i'm just going through a lot of shit and i don't know what to do...

Cory, you can get help. Yu can still get some sort of document that said you passed high school even if you dropped out. Forgot what t was called, but you can test for it. Finding a job is a matter of looking and persistence.For your roommates, maybe request living in another room? For everything else, you can find support too. Crisis hotlines, and believe hospitals should have people you can talk to free of charge, or maybe your parents can help?

Not much I or anyone here can suggest, we're not trained for this, you know? Maybe we can help you point you in the right direction though.

Rosalia wrote:

Cory, you can get help. Yu can still get some sort of document that said you passed high school even if you dropped out. Forgot what t was called, but you can test for it. Finding a job is a matter of looking and persistence.For your roommates, maybe request living in another room? For everything else, you can find support too. Crisis hotlines, and believe hospitals should have people you can talk to free of charge, or maybe your parents can help?

Not much I or anyone here can suggest, we're not trained for this, you know? Maybe we can help you point you in the right direction though.

Thanks for understanding i feel a lot better today especially after getting that out, i can do this i can fix my shit, thank you guys XD

Happy to help! :D

If there's one thing I learned from my own sob story of life, which I will not mention and Katy mostly knows anyway, it's that holding it in reaaaally sucks lol. Better to let it out, so good job :D

I was once a straight A+ student many a year ago, then my parents split up and I fell down a hole of mass depression and thoughts of self termination. I went to a therapist for 5 years and was put on different medications, some which helped, others which made me one to kill myself. My head was so far up my ass that I was on the shit throne, king shit of shittonia, covered in the glory sea of shit. Man I thought it was never going to end, I basically lost all hope in life was going down and down and down. Then about a year ago I decided after years of talking to my therapist and being on anti depressants I was going to pull my depressed head out of my ass and get on with my life. I decided to get over the issues I've had with my parents, and finally get through my education. Yeah i still have a time and again when I remember the hole I was in and the crap that I dealt with, but I don't allow it to bring me down anymore. I have made myself a goal in life and already have a career path in kind for me. I still even now have sometimes were depression will hit me but I fight it off with random positive thoughts.